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Thursday, August 25, 2011

Short and Sweet

Not a whole lot to write about..

We've been busy with things lately...playdates, dinner with family and baseball. So I'm going to let you know a few things about this gluten free faze I'm going through (haha OK so it's not a faze lol)

So, I went to dinner at my mom's tonight and she bought me gluten free pasta. The only difference is, she got me corn pasta instead of the brown rice pasta.

Here is my rating:

Brown rice pasta on a scale of 1-10 (10 being the most amazing food I've ever had)
0.5/10 (yes u read that right-ZERO POINT FIVE)

Corn pasta
8/10

So i was very impressed with the corn pasta. Although it smelled like farts after it was cooked, adding sauce to it made it very yummy and no taste to it...so I'm happy with that...I can live with corn pasta, farts and all LOL

I've also been having chicken salads (yes everything is made at home fresh), lots of fruits, roasted chicken, fresh veggies...and popcorn...NO BUTTER ADDED (we have theatre popcorn here and i don't add butter)

But today i went to lunch with a very special person in my life, and the menu was pre-made so i didn't have a choice. It was grilled cheese on whole wheat bread. So since starting this diet, that has been my only cheat really. I had gluten today. I had no choice. But man was it nice to have bread that wasn't a sponge LOL

Tomorrow, and all of next week, I'll be a working lady with a little job 8-5pm. Making a bit of dough to purchase my 2 days of crazy ebaying. And, no, I can't talk about my ebay right now. Cause you'd all think i'm crazy...

G'nite ;)

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

the ALMOST uneventful day...

So, I saw my internist today. Not much to say actually. Not all blood work came back yet, and we are still waiting for me to get a colonoscopy (woohoo, more fun-ugh). So, I won't spend too much time boring you on a "finally" uneventful appointment.

Now for the EVENTFUL part of the day... (exaggerating for eventful part of course)

I was sitting on the love seat, with my blue grapes, catching up on some emails. I felt the fat part of my legs jiggling. I look down and thought, "wow my love seat is really loose". Once the "jiggling" stopped, i tried to move the love seat myself by shaking my booty and see if my legs jiggle. Didn't happen. Looked at my dog Pitoune and shook my head like "wow that was weird".

I log online and see a friend's status (she lives near by).  "please tell me someone else has felt that too".

I was like "woah", that wasn't my love seat falling apart, that was an earthquake.

So it's day 2 on my gluten free diet.

Lunch: Hummus and veggies, bean chips and salsa


One word on these wheat free chips...YUM...YUM...YUM...(so that's 3 words). Their a bit spicy, and the salsa was spicy...it made for some good salsa and chips...mmmmmmmm

Here is the kind I got


Desert: Blue grapes


Supper: Gluten free pizza.



So, the pizza toppings part was amazing. (garlic seasoned chicken, garlic mushrooms, green pepers) YUM. The dough??? YUCK again. So i took all the toppings off and ate them as is, and got jay to take a bite of that freking gluten free dough.

These were his words "they can send a man to the moon, but they can't make a good gluten free bread"? hahahahahahha. AND, he said "listen, our garberator (food disposal) doesn't like it either". It was fighting with it to grind it up.

Here is the pizza dough I got
Desert: Fresh Ontario Peaches


So not much else to really write about today.

Oh except, I lost 3.5 lbs in one day on this "diet". BONUS

Monday, August 22, 2011

A little insult to injury...

This morning I woke up feeling funny.  Annabelle was still sleeping, and Arielle had just had breakfast with Jason.

I came into the living room, and had to shut the blinds. Wow was it bright.

I decided to do my business in the bathroom, and as usual, I grabbed my magazine. (yes i do like to keep myself busy, even if I'm just peeing). As I was reading it, some of the letters were not there. So I thought to myself, "i must of looked at the sun". So I turned my head and started blinking really fast to see if i saw "sun spots" on the wall. Nope. None. So back to the magazines. I start blinking again and some of the letters disappear. I think to myself "holy shit, my retina's are detaching." A moment of panic came upon me. Got up, washed my hands, and decided to brush my teeth. While brushing, i blink non stop to try and figure out what's going on with my right eye. It was only the right eye. I finish brushing and sit down in my bedroom and realize what is happening.

I call Jay and say "your going to have to take Annabelle to the Dr's for her immunization. I'm getting an aura".

Mom was already on her way to watch Arielle, and then I had Jay come pick up Annabelle.

As soon as i hung up with Jason, i dig for my migraine meds. (30 ish dollars a pill-thank god for some coverage). I pop this pill, and it melts on my tongue. I pray and pray that I won't get the headache once the aura stops. (the aura part usually lasts 20mins-45 mins for me-the headache on the other hand lasts all day).

Jason shows up and grabs Belle. I sit on the couch with my mom, but i still feel very funny and really outta body. My mother says "go lay down". So i asked to let me know when Jason brings Belle back and she can head out. By this point my headache was so bad that I thought my head would fall off.

Jason comes home and sees me laying in bed. He says "stay in bed, your mom will make Belle breakfast and I'm heading back to work". So i ask him to tell my mom to wake me when she has to go. (she had plans).

My mother lets me sleep until about 11am. She offers to cancel her plans so that i can rest some more. But i assure her that I'm OK, I'll just keep the blinds closed and the kids can play.

When Jay comes home for lunch, I decide I should probably eat since I'm going to be starving by afternoon. ( I will get to my new "diet" once I'm done babbling about migraines)

At 1pm, I put the kids for a nap and i lay down on the couch. Arielle got up at 3 ish (to be honest i don't quite remember cause i wasn't feeling so good). She asked if she could watch "Higgly town hero's". Of course you can watch TV, that way i can stay laying down.

At around 4pm, Jason shows up at home and I'm STILL sleeping on couch. Arielle was playing with her Polly pockets. Gosh she's so good to her mama. Jay sits on couch and takes a rest.

By 5pm I wake up from a dream. A dream where I was dreaming in my dream. WEIRD.

I wake up Annabelle and get supper going. Holy lazy day. Yet, I guess it had to be lazy, cause i swear my head was going to fall off.

So here is all the info (according to MAYO CLINIC) on aura migraines.

Definition

By Mayo Clinic staff
Migraine with aura is a migraine that's preceded or accompanied by a variety of sensory warning signs or symptoms, such as flashes of light, blind spots or tingling in your hand or face.
Migraine with aura is generally treated in the same way as migraine without aura. And the same medications and self-care measures that help to prevent a migraine can also be used to prevent migraine with aura.

Symptoms


By Mayo Clinic staff
Migraine aura symptoms include temporary visual or sensory disturbances that typically precede the usual migraine symptoms — such as intense head pain, nausea and sensitivity to light and sound. Migraine aura usually occurs within an hour before head pain begins and generally lasts less than 60 minutes before disappearing. Sometimes, migraine aura may occur with little or no headache.
Visual signs and symptomsThe majority of people who experience migraine aura develop visual signs and symptoms. These may include:
  • Blind spots (scotomas), which are sometimes outlined by simple geometric designs
  • Zigzag lines that gradually float across your field of vision
  • Shimmering spots or stars
  • Changes in vision
  • Flashes of light
These types of visual disturbances tend to start in the center of your visual field and move outward, or spread.
Other sensory disturbancesOther temporary sensations sometimes associated with aura include:
  • Feelings of numbness, typically felt as tingling in one hand or on your face
  • Difficulty with speech or language
  • Muscle weakness
When to see a doctorIf you experience the signs and symptoms of migraine with aura, such as temporary vision loss or floating spots or zigzag lines in your field of vision, see your doctor immediately to rule out more serious conditions, such as stroke or retinal tear. Once these conditions have been ruled out, future migraines with aura don't need to be considered a potential sign of a more serious condition and won't require a visit to your doctor, unless your symptoms change.

Causes

By Mayo Clinic staff
The cause of migraine with aura isn't clearly understood. It's believed that the visual aura that may accompany migraine is like an electrical or chemical wave that moves across the part of your brain that processes visual signals (visual cortex). As the wave spreads, it may cause these visual hallucinations.
Many of the same factors that trigger migraine can also trigger migraine with aura, including stress, bright lights, fatigue and changes in sleep patterns.

Risk factors

By Mayo Clinic staff
While no specific factors appear to put you at risk for migraine aura, migraines in general seem to be more common in people with a family history of migraine. Migraines are also more common in women than men.

Complications

By Mayo Clinic staff
People who have migraine with aura are at a slightly higher risk of stroke. Women who have migraine with aura appear to have an even higher risk of stroke if they smoke or take birth control pills.

As i mentioned in a previous blog entry, being on birth control can cause a stroke if you get an aura migraine. That's why I had to stop birth control. And the reason I was on birth control was to regulate my "female cycle". And this may be TMI (too much info) for some of you, but i have not had a woman's cycle since April 14th. (and NO I'm not prego, don't even ask). So I really wish i could be on the "pill" so i could feel normal again.


Maybe I got the migraine from NOT getting a cycle and my hormones being all to "shit" again. Who knows, but I tell ya, it's not a fun "headache" to have. (not that ANY are fun) I know some of you have dealt with Auras before the headache, since I've spoken to some of you about it. But for those that don't know what that is, i have a few pictures that shows you what we aura sufferers go through. (my husband gets them a few times a month).

So the first picture shows how part of your vision starts to go. It kinda shows how I started to not see letters in my magazine. Kinda like you can't see the 10 and 11 of the clock picture A. Then as it gets worst you start to see less and less.



This next picture shows how bad your aura is when it's full blown. I normally always see the zigzag lines in color, (like this picture) but today they were just a bright clear light. Kinda like a disco tech. (but i assure you, it wasn't a very fun disco-gotta keep a sense of humour right?)

This next picture shows a perfect example of how your peripheral vision disappears once the zigzag lines move completely to one side of your vision. You can't see anything from that side until it completely goes away. That part is just as scary since u feel like your going blind.


Day 1 of my GLUTEN FREE life

Lunch: 2 hard boiled eggs and 2 gluten free toast.

Eggs-YUM
Toast-THE most disgusting thing I've ever had my whole life

Have anyone of you tried gluten free bread? It's like eating a sponge. Actually it's more of a sponge then a sponge itself. NEVER again. No way. Can't do the bread. I will be cutting bread out for a while. Cause i ain't touching gluten free bread again. No way, no how.

Desert: Cantaloupe and blue grapes

Supper: Fresh garlic, fresh parsley, fresh mushrooms, chicken and brown rice noodles.

The noodles. One word. YUCK. That will get some getting used to. Like MAJOR getting used to. But it wasn't the worst food I've ever had (refer to gluten free bread)

Desert: Blueberries and peaeches

a little picture of my supper...looks good...but don't be fooled...the noodles were icky to me lol


Evening snack: Apple wedges with peanut butter.

So that's my day 1 on gluten free...Let's hope day 2 is UN-eventful



Sunday, August 21, 2011

where to begin???

Wow, it's been a while eh? Don't be fooled though. Just because I haven't written in a few months doesn't mean that the wheels in my head have stopped spinning.

I have a lot to say, so bare with me.

First and foremost, I'd like to talk a bit about facebook. Now i've slowly (and by slowly, i really mean SLOWLY) started to faze it out. Although originally i wanted to cut it out of my life completely, a few friends mentioned that i should keep it in case someone needs a hold of me and that facebook is universal, that way it's easier. Fair enough.

I may post some pictures and email or write on someones wall (although I'm not big on wall writing, because i don't like the "world" to see what i write to certain people) but my status changing is a thing of the past as of late. I may post a few memorable things, but my day to day life will no longer be public knowledge. If you are lucky enough (haha) to be on my blackberry messenger or texting, then please don't be shy lol. I will also be blogging a bit more during this new journey I've started. (the journey will be mentioned in a few min's).

So as I close a bit of a "facebook chapter" in my life, a few more chapters in my life will begin.

Okie dokie, now on to my life up to now. Wait, that would be too much writing if i wrote everything from the time we moved. So, I'll just say this. WE ARE MOVED WOOHOO. Pretty much settled, yet a few odds and ends to finish up on the new home. Yes it's our home now. The feeling I get pulling in my driveway is amazing. We have finally found our forever home. I crave it. Even if I'm out an hour. I crave coming home. I've also hosted more friends since we've moved then at the last house. It's more cozy here, since it's all open concept. Everyone is together, as opposed to cooking on one floor, and hanging out on a different floor (like the last house). My girls love this house so much. They play together in the new mickey mouse playroom all the time. No mommy or daddy needed...now that is something to WOOHOO about lol. So in a nutshell, our new home is the best decision we ever made (besides having children of course). If you haven't read about why I didn't want to buy this house, please refer to a later blog entry about not wanting this house :)

My new adventure...hmmmmm....not sure I can call it an adventure...OK, maybe it's a new journey. Yea, OK, my new journey.

So what I'm about to talk about has to do with, Lupus, rashes, not feeling good and a life changing style that will surely change my physical, mental, and whatever state.

For the last couple weeks, my lupus has gotten worst. Well, physically worst. A few of you have seen me lately while I'm dealing with this awful body rash. Not only awful. The worst ever body rash that makes me cranky, itchy, and burning.

My internist has prescribed a "lupus medication". I started taking and not long after I developed a rash like no other. It's been 8 days of this rash now. And NO it's not better. I see this internist on Tuesday.

I saw my family DR at the beginning of the week. He/She said "we'll wait to see what the internist says." So I continued with the meds.

A few days after, i had to go to the EMERG. Why?!? Cause, the rash has become a bit debilitating (OK a lot) and I have not been able to ignore it anymore. So, sometime this week, I saw a Dr at the EMERG who was taken aback by the look of this rash. He/She had me stop the meds (which i had already due to talking to my pharmacist) and gave me a shot on my ass. (oh isn't that fun?) I also started a new medication for the itching. I don't find it works too much. What this medication does though, is zonks me out for hours. So can i take it during the day? no not really, my girls need me. And I'm not rich enough to hire a nanny lol.

By the next day POST-EMERG, it was worst again. So off to the family DR. Now he took it a bit more seriously. So we talked about it, and gave me meds for it. Those don't really work either.

What is mind boggling now, to myself as well as my DR, is this rash here because of the meds, OR Lupus? Guess, the internist I'm seeing soon will be able to hopefully answer that one. So for the meantime, I get to hang out in loose clothing and sit by the fan, so that my rash feels a bit better. The fan cools it down and gives me temporarily relief.

Here are some pictures of this rash I speak of. I had to crop some things out of it, due to privacy. This is after all, a blog about a talk-aholic, and not a naked-holic. Although, I could start a new blog page for that, if people show interest. :)





Forgot to mention that my fingers are in rough shape too. I have trouble bending them if they haven't been bent in a while. There's little tiny cluster of rash all over the joints. That is as painful, if not more then my body.

Here comes the "new journey" part. This passed weekend, i had the chance to speak with a very wise woman. We had a good conversation about lupus, rash, my joint pain. Anything and everything. And we got talking about a change of lifestyle when it comes to food and nutrition.

We decided, to start me on a gluten, and dairy free "diet". I am sure most of you know how much poisons gluten is for your body. And tests have shown time and time again, that gluten free makes your overall feel better (joint pain included).

Over the last few days I've done some research on this type of diet and decided that I must do this, not only for me, but for my family. My girls really need their mother to start feeling better. On a scale of 1-10, 10 being the best I feel, I would give myself a 4 ish, sometimes 6. And that isn't good enough for me or my family.

Today, Jason and I took each one child to do some errands, and off I went. I first stopped at the market (l'amis). I got a crap load of fresh produce. So many fresh fruits and veggies.

My next stop was at a special store to pick up gluten free products. I got everything from pasta, to soy sauces, to BBQ sauce to muffins, to pizza dough, to bread, all gluten free. You name it, i got it. I could probably take a picture of everything i got, but i'm sure u get the idea and don`t want to be bored with pictures of gluten free products.

I am really looking forward to this new lifestyle and i'm ready to feel better.  I have a really good friend who is going to teach me how to cook gluten free and make it taste yummy. And she sure knows how to cook, so i`m looking forward to spending time with her and learning her tricks.

Of course I have a lot more to say, but for now, i'm going to leave you all with this. I still have a HUGE part of my life to write about, but, this will have to wait. For now, I will document my life on gluten, and dairy free.

Thanks for those who continue to support me and are there no matter what. You are a rare find.